|Party Time! ....excellent?
||[Dec. 9th, 2013|11:49 am]
Saturday was our annual Fondue Party. We almost considered not having it this year due to the time, energy, and money it takes to put it on, but I was touched when people said they'd miss the party, so we had it.|
It was a bit more low-key this year in that I had so much stuff handled well in advance that I wasn't rushing around at the last minute. Hell, I even had time for a nap prior to the party which NEVER happens. Once the party came, though, I couldn't shake some of my feelings of anxiety, and I don't know how "normal" people do it!
When you're throwing a party, how do you deal with having so many different groups of friends in one place? I CONSTANTLY felt like I was ignoring people (not intentionally, of course!), and being a bad hostess. I'd be finally relaxing, in the midst of a great conversation with someone, and then out of the corner of my eye, I'd see someone (or a couple) sitting alone, not talking to anyone. Staring off into space. Looking bored. I'd immediately jump into hostess mode & try to bounce over to them to chat, to offer them a drink, whatever. I never felt like I got to truly enjoy the party at all...I haven't felt like I've gotten to enjoy the party for a few years now. I feel like I'm so focused on making sure everyone ELSE is having fun, and not having enough fun myself. I always feel guilty after the party that I should have talked to certain people more. This year, I can think of a handful of people I barely said more than "Hello" to, and I feel like shit for that.
I know that you're not expected to be a dancing monkey for partygoers, and that they have some of the responsibility of entertaining themselves...but where is that balance?